Day 4: Body Image

I went swimming again today. I've never really worried about body image too much, as I know it can't be helped much in my case. My legs are quite twisted, my back is VERY crooked/hunched, gravity has taken over as I'm getting older...There's just not a lot there that's worth lookin' at.
I've never been overly comfortable in a swimming suit, though. But on the other hand, there's not much I can do about that, either. I LOVE swimming!! Water is a HUUUUUGE relief/down-time/relaxation for me.
For the first time today, I wasn't worried about how the suit was looking on me. In fact, I was actually kind of enjoying it. I still don't look GREAT in it, but as I've been working out and toning up, it's been getting loose - and that feels GREAT! :-) Why am I sooooo worried about my weight, when the rest of my body is trashed? I don't know! Maybe it's a 'girl thing'.
But I'm also finding that exercise has become a source of power for me. There are a bunch of people in my life who couldn't care less about their weight. I come from a long line of buffet-junkies - and most of them are unhealthy and it's hard for them to live/get around because of their weight. I do NOT want to have that life on top of everything else I have to deal with. Don't get me wrong - I LOVE my family! It just really confuses me that they would CHOOSE to handicap themselves in that way. It makes me want to double MY efforts to show them if I can exercise and be healthy, they certainly can, too. It makes me want to send them all to one of my websites (http://becauseicandoit.com) for pointers! LOL Wouldn't THAT raise a few eyebrows!